I just returned from a long weekend in Charlotte, North Carolina where we attended 2 days of Code Orange revival. God used this revival to encourage my spirit and I have tons to unpack from this trip. The first thing that I heard that really stuck with me was something Dharius Daniels said (I took two pages of notes during his sermon), “Could it be that God will allow us to live on whatever level we settle for.” This struck me so deep that I even wrote MIND BLOWN in my notes next to this quote. I struggle a lot with how I see myself. Often beating myself up with how I could’ve done something better or said something differently and this has really impacted how I see myself and how I view what happens to me. Love others is something I often tell my kids and is preached about on Sunday mornings but loving myself needs to happen first. I need to start seeing myself as God sees me. I am a child of God. I have been settling for who I think am versus rising up to the challenge of who God has called me to be. He didn’t call me be self loathing and critical. I need to RISE UP to God’s call not settle for the low opinion I have of myself. The song Rise Up has been on repeat for me and these lyrics help me remember that I am to serve God regardless of bad days & self loathing:
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
I have been living in my doubt and not in God’s delight. Psalm 149:4 says, “For the Lord takes delight in his people; he crowns the humble with victory.” He delights in us and I should focus on His image of me not that image I’ve let the world create of me. I am a daughter of the most High God and today I am rising up to be who has he called me to be for the glory of his kingdom.
in grace and love,